May 26, 2010

I have a date on Friday!

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:42 pm by Erin

Oh my gosh, I am so freaking excited!  OK, that’s not totally true.  I’m also really nervous.  It’s been so long since I’ve done this!  I’m hardly sure where to start…I thought about getting a wax, but I’ve never done that before and it seemed like a bad idea to do right before a date.  Help me, I need your advice!

Should I paint my toenails?  Bright and flirty, or serious and sexy?

What about my hair?  I think something that doesn’t get messed up too easily, don’t you?  After all, I’ll be on my back at some point 😉

Shaving *down there*?  I’ll probably just tidy up a bit.

Clothes?  Well, I do have work so it’ll have to be versatile for both things.

Because…

I HAVE A DATE WITH THE DILDO-CAM!

Oh yes, it’s true.  I got my period last night and so we’re starting the Clomid-IUI cycle that will precede IVF.  It’s probably the only time in my adult life that I’ve greeted cramps, a backache, and bleeding with “YES!!!”  I was already spotting but so afraid that my period would start on Friday and days 3 and 4 would be Sunday and Memorial Day, both days on which the clinic is closed.  I called Nurse L this morning and now have a 7:45 a.m. appointment on Friday with the vampires and wand-wielders at my RE’s office.  We’ll also set up the appointment for my saline sonohystogram the next week and I’ll start Clomid.  I can’t remember if my clinic does d3-7 or 5-9 but either way, I’ll walk out with Rx in hand.  Ahhh, I haven’t had a hot flash in so long.  June in Atlanta seems like a great time for them to start agai……..oh, wait.  I guess I’ll have to suck it up.  But if anyone asks me “Hot enough for you?” next month, I may snap their heads off.  Just fair warning.

I was seriously getting worried about this cycle.  We are going on vacation with my ILs next month and if I didn’t get started soon with the Clomid, I wasn’t going to get in the whole cycle before we go.  As it is, I’ll be cutting it REALLY close but should at least be around to do the post-O progesterone check that I need.  I’ll get an Rx for birth control at that time and get it filled so that if we’re gone when my period starts (because really, no one is actually expecting the Clomid-IUI cycle to work.  It’s mostly just to do all the prep stuff before IVF.), I can start taking it immediately. 
I’m alternating between feeling hopeful—I can’t shed the feeling that IVF will surely work for me, despite my best odds being under 50% with a single-embryo transfer—and feeling really scared—these are likely to be the very last two active TTC cycles of my life.  And it’s so much money, which also scares me.  You were all right about that part, though.  I can’t live the rest of my life wishing that I’d spent the money and at least tried.  We have to try.

So I will prepare for my date with the RE’s office.  Other than our consultation last spring, it’s been over 3 1/2 years since I was there.  I wonder if it will feel the same as ever…?

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5 Comments »

  1. My Reality said,

    I like to wax before dates at the clinic. But if it isn’t your thing, no worries. Just make sure your toes are painted and you are all good!

    Good luck!

  2. Heather said,

    Good luck on Friday. I would think a bright and flirty color might be in order. 🙂

  3. amanda said,

    It felt different for me going back. It wasn’t harder just different.

    Good luck! I felt the same way going into my last cycle, that we had to at least try. Then we would know one way or the other.

  4. Yo-yo Mama said,

    Only wax if your skin is already accustomed to it. I waxed for the 1st time in almost a year and my bikini area looked like a plucked chicken.

    If you’re going for something memorable…

    Best of luck!

  5. Melody said,

    My RE visits were always the days I pulled out the leopard print underwear, painted my toenails some insane purple or green, and wore my 3″ long African fertility doll earrings. A girl has to feel powerful when she’s lying on that table.

    And definitely trim up, but is it just me, or do the dildo cam techs always seem to do that with their eyes shut?

    Excited for you!


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